My apologies

I've neglected this blog for a long time and I owe my followers (if I still have a few left, that is) an explanation and an apology. But first, let me ask you a question.  Actually, I got 2 questions. First:  have you experienced feeling that you're getting nowhere in spite of all the efforts and time spent on something? And second, have you tried writing a post just because you have to?  (And once finished, you won't publish it anyway because it's not good enough.) If to both  questions you answered yes, then you know how I felt. It's not a good feeling and it's very unproductive.

Few of my last posts were a deviation from my main topic and it was during that period that my followers lost interest and left. An amateurish move, I now know and I'm paying for the consequences.

I am torn between two choices. First, just let my blog die its natural death and second, try to pick up the pieces and rebuild.

The first option is easy and very tempting, if I might add... but a part of me can't let go. You see, knowing that someone, somewhere, is visiting this blog, reading my posts and enjoying it perhaps...that alone is an inspiring thought.

Reading my last few posts made me feel materialistic and a bit ashamed.  I mean, there's nothing wrong with wanting to earn income aside from what we get from a day job which isn't enough anyway. But to be a turncoat is another thing. I felt that I have betrayed my friends out there...and to them, my apologies...